becoming a typical fri. night

So today was not that great. I took a quiz this morning and I do believe I made a 20 on it. Luckily that one will be dropped. I just have to learn this stuff for the final on Tuesday.

I really wanted to go out tonight. An old friend that moved to Nashville is in town for the night. Unfortunatly I have to work at 7:45 in the morning and I have to work 'til 6 p.m. It's not gonna be a fun day. Maybe once classes are over I can make a trip to Nashville to hang out with Stan. I used to drink with him at least 4 nights a week and now I only get to hang out with him once every 6 months or so.

I'm now sitting at home bored out of my mind and just wasting time. This is becoming my typical friday night. How sad is that?!!

I've come to realize that the old saying "nice guys finish last" is more true than most believe. I am a prime example. When I was in to some other things back in my younger years (up until a few months ago), I was rarely single. When I drank 5 nights a week and smoked more pot than cheech and chong for a few years I always seemed to have someone around. I don't know if they just had that bad boy complex or they thought they were going to change me. Regardless the girls I seemed to date were your typical "good girls". None of them did any kind of drugs and only one drank at least once a week. These were the girls that would try their best to get me to go to church and even class and they attempted each and every day to help me to become a better person. When I was in my "wild stage" people seemed to be more attracted to me. There was even one occassion where I'm sure the girl wanted to date me just to piss her parents off. They hated me from day one and thought I was her biggest waste of time. Now that I look back on it, I strongly agree with them.

I've had my wild times and now I've become such a better person. I have changed more in the past 6 months than I ever have. Now I don't seem to be attracting anyone. This is where I prove the point that since I have become a nice guy I am finishing last. Or maybe not even finishing so to speak. I'm not even freakin' starting. To all the women that claim they want a nice guy, I am here to call their bluff. They should be honest with themselves and just admit that nice guys aren't their "cup of tea". Since my change in lifestyles I have only noticed one person that showed the slightest bit of interest. I'm not so sure that was even interest at all either. More just curiosity. Like I've said once before, I don't really have the capability to tell the difference. I think girls are more attracted to what I used to be rather than what I am now. I refuse to go back to what I used to be so I'm gonna just give up all together for now. Maybe it's the college thing. Maybe the ones that actually really want a nice guy are those that are in the real world. Maybe they don't want that "frat guy" anymore. Maybe they want someone responsible or whatever I am. Who knows?! I damn sure don't!! Only time will tell.